Somewhere along the way, you’ll forget the fear

In college, I folded endless arrays of panties at a certain lingerie chain and cleaned toilets at a hardware store. It was pretty monotonous, unrewarding work.

After graduation, I was hoping it would get better. I temped in various corporate settings. It was a whole new world, and due to a mix of fear and a lack of experience, I often found myself erring on the side of caution. I practically never, ever took initiative – I did what I was told.

I couldn’t quite find my footing. I felt unfulfilled, but I couldn’t articulate why. I felt frustrated – but that, too, was hard to pinpoint.

It was awful. But there was a light at the end of the tunnel.

By chance, I took a random, full-time job in marketing at an IT rental company.

My manager, Anthony, had a fierce demeanor, a booming voice, a kind heart – and an open door policy. One day, I timidly mentioned a brand new idea, and his response shocked me. It was genuine. And laced with pure enthusiasm. “Go! Do! Try!

I was utterly taken aback. I had never heard that sort of reaction from a manager before. I’d finally found a boss who supported me – and it changed everything.

Apparently, it was okay to try new things and not follow the rule book. I wouldn’t even get fired for it! It was okay to reach out to strangers with sales pitches — the worst that could happen is they’d hang up on me or not reply. This led to an exploration of Twitter and LinkedIn as new platforms for sales – and to tablets and iPads joining our official product roster.

Most importantly, it led to job satisfaction. I learned I like to try new things — and need creativity and agility in order to thrive.

I went. I did. I tried. And while I didn’t always succeed, Anthony’s support opened my eyes to the possibilities of what can happen when fear and inhibition are abandoned. Years later, I left his employ, driven away from Manhattan by the excessive cost of living. But the lesson was learned.

In Raleighwood, I found a fresh beginning. Never again was I afraid to make a connection, pick up a phone, or get on stage. And that fearlessness has paid back its dividends ten times over.

Erin Monday dares you to get on Tweeter.

This story was shared live, at Cisco’s Women of Impact Conference in 2014.